Tuesday, January 21, 2014


We lost a baby last week at 18 weeks.
We lost a baby in June at 12 weeks.
I want to curl up in a ball and cry.
I want to stay in bed all day.
I don't really want to do much of anything.
I want to go back in time.
My whole body aches for a baby.
I want the milk that came in to go away.
I want to stand still in time.
I want to still be pregnant.
I want a sleeping baby on my chest.
I want to be sorting through tiny pink and blue clothes.
I want to be feeling my baby kicking.
I want to be planning and dreaming my baby's future.
I want to be worried about drinking too much caffeine and drinking enough water.
I want to be hearing 'congratulations' instead of 'we are so sorry'.
I want my baby back.

1 comment:

  1. Callie, I am praying for you guys with an aching heart for you and tears rolling down my cheeks. Love, Carlie